Stolen Treasure

{by Gailt Breen of These Little Waves}

photo credit: Sean Hubbard/@seanhubbard

I look at him through red rimmed eyes. He wipes my cheek dry with one thumb and asks, Are you happy?

Yes. No. Sometimes.

Yes, when I’m focused.

No, when I falter.


We sit in the center of our bed like our three children often do. Our room is large but this space in it is small. Our toes touch. Our voices conspire.

He is loving mixed with worry. I am anxious laced with anger.

Anger because he dared scratch beneath the surface of what I want seen. I am faltering.

When I’m focused, I see a straight path to my treasure. The obstacles along the way are simply tasks to complete.

But inevitably, I falter. I falter. It is my own undoing every single time. I steal my own confidence. My own vision. My own focus.

I hide these treasures somewhere deep inside until they are no longer visible. And I replace them with ugliness. Fear. Insecurity. Jealousy.

What makes you happy? He asks, leading me back.

The kids, you, writing. I list my gems one by one, keeping track on my fingers. I try to hide behind my words, but I can’t.

I slump and put my counting hand down. I need a break. He smiles, because this he can fix.

We talk quietly. Share days. Make plans.

I tuck my children into bed again.

I take advantage of a hot shower and soft fleece.

I ignore my multiplying to do list and spend time with a friend.

Wine and laughter soothe my soul. I share my writing goals. They are big and seem far away.

I’m scared to try.

You’ll be great.

When I falter, kind words wash over me without making the tiniest of imprints.

When I’m focused, I open the door, gently unroll each one, and welcome it in. Believe in it and allow it to restore me.

I have a choice to make, a task to complete. Let go of my stolen treasures and continue down this spiral or consciously stop. Refocus. Reclaim what is rightfully mine.

I come home and softly make my way through each sleeping room.

I breathe in the stillness at each stop and place one hand on each rhythmic heartbeat just for a moment. Careful not to wake, ready to summon the goodness back to me.

I tiptoe downstairs and melt into the large green chair. I wrap myself up in the sheer yellow blanket, open my laptop and begin to type.

Each tap of the keys is a claim: These treasures are mine. I see them, and I am taking them back.

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76 Comments to “Stolen Treasure”

  1. Frelle

    this is one of my favorite posts from you, beyond heartwarming and so relatable. glad storybleed spotlighted you!!

  2. The lovely and talented @GalitBreen is featured on @StoryBleed today.She doesn't disappoint :)

  3. RT @HeatheroftheEO: The lovely and talented @GalitBreen is featured on @StoryBleed today.She doesn't disappoint :)

  4. lyzl says:

    RT @heatheroftheeo: The lovely and talented @GalitBreen is featured on @StoryBleed today.She doesn't disappoint :)

  5. Love the writing–both sure footed and gentle in its tone. & I love this lit mag! I didn’t know about it before.
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  6. Galit Breen says:

    I'm thrilled to have this post on @StoryBleed today! {Please read} Stolen Treasure

  7. Ash

    I really need to favorite this one. I loved it the first time. I needed it the second.

    Go, Galit, go!
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  8. One of my favorites by one of my favorites. Congratulations, Galit.
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  9. @galitbreen Thank YOU. @storybleed is happy to have you and your Stolen Treasure

  10. Tenny says:

    When I see the picture, I remember my father because he is one of the persons I know who is using this typewriter…
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  11. Each tap of the keys is a claim to the Stolen Treasure by @Galitbreen

  12. Each tap of the keys is a claim to the Stolen Treasure by @Galitbreen

  13. Galit Breen says:

    This post is so very close to my heart. {Please read} RT @StoryBleed Stolen Treasure by @Galitbreen

  14. hubs says:

    One of my photos was used in @storybleed Magazine. Cool.

  15. [...] writing is on Story Bleed today.” I [...]

  16. I so love this, beautiful, Galit.

  17. Oh! How I adore this post! Your writing is beautiful and heartfelt. You paint an amazingly finite picture of your feelings.

  18. Kimberly

    I so love this. It’s beautiful and raw. Amazing as always!
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  19. Jessie Powell

    While I was switching medications this summer (I’m bipolar) I lost my writing for a little over a month. It just went. I felt this way then. That awful spiral where every effort to focus my mind just sent it off on some other painful tangent. I hated it. Medicine helped. Eventually, I came back. I’m glad that whatever caused you to feel this way, you came back from it, too.
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  20. Thrilled, as always, to read your words, Galit. You have a remarkable way of voicing my own fears and dreams. I hope someday to meet you in person, to talk about our kids and writing and life and love and faltering in real time. xo
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  21. Love reading @galitbreen here – Stolen Treasure | Story Bleed Magazine via @storybleed

  22. Claudia Simpson says:

    After watching this picture, I remember my father because he is one of the persons I know who is using this typewriter, thanks for sharing, keep up the good work.
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  23. Sue Campbell

    I get it. I SO get it. Well done.

  24. Sue Campbell

    I get it. I SO get it. Well done, Galit.
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  25. Check out @GalitBreen's words on focus and faltering at @StoryBleed: Stolen Treasure | Story Bleed Magazine

  26. I. Love. This.

    I always feel as if I’m faltering. I always think I need a break. I always hide my fears.
    From everyone. Including myself.

    But the treasures? No one can take them away.
    They’re mine to keep. And give.

  27. Dina

    Breathtaking, as always. You have what seems like an excellent partner and friend. Hugs and kisses!
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  28. Runnermom-jen

    Congrats, Galit!! Such a beautiful and heart wrenching post!

  29. Kristen

    I wish that Galit could climb into my head and heart and put all of my emotions and put them into beautifully written words. She amazes me at the feeling behind each and every word she chooses.
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  30. jessica

    So beautiful Galit and just as amazing to see you here.
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  31. Oh Galit! This is your story, but isn’t it every writer-momma’s story? I want 3 more hours every day. For my own. It sounds selfish, right? But I need to move my brain and my hand. I need to see that I can create something from nothing. Like you do. I’m so glad to have met you. (kind of.) Is it wrong to want more?
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  32. Jessica says:

    A beautiful post Galit and I know how you feel.
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  33. Thanks for the RT, my sweet @GalitBreen. Your post at today has me thinking…still.

  34. jlweinberg says:

    This is really lovely: Stolen Treasure | Story Bleed Magazine via @storybleed

  35. Ruth says:

    You really have a good talent when it comes to words and making a wonderful post. Your talent is beyond exceptional and that is what I love best.
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  36. Katie Hurley says:

    Stolen Treasure | Story Bleed Magazine via @storybleed

    • Anil

      I am so so SO sorry that you endured that hoibrrle vicious beast and that you never got the help that you rightfully deserved. I can’t even imagine going through something so terrible like PPD without family or with out help. My heart breaks for you my friend.I am so proud of you for posting this.Know that, and heaven forbid, that with scrumplette, if you notice anything different, please, please get help. You don’t have to suffer in silence.Have you taken the risk assessment???Love you honey.Kimberly recently posted..

  37. elissapr says:

    Oh Galit. How you’re writing has evolved. Each word carefully thought out. Phrases that evoke so much emotion. Loved this.

  38. Taya says:

    Excellent prose…. a real joy to read! Thanks for the inspiration, Galit!

    -Taya Anderson
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  39. I am in awe of you. You are truly gifted.

  40. angela

    This is so very beautiful-calming and empowering at the same time. I loved the original and love this more, tonight, when I am feeling the need for this sort of boost. Thank you Galit, always.

  41. I love how she settled in to reclaim the treasure she has within her. Brilliant!
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  42. Elaine

    You greatly illustrate the tug and pull of our lives as women who want to do so many things and love them all fiercely. Your words, as always, are beautiful and ring true. xo
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  43. Chessa says:

    This is one of the most important things from the past where computers originated..
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  44. Yuliya says:

    Ah yes I understand. Beautifully written Galit, as always.
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  45. Jenny Sophy says:

    It has been an enriching experience reading this post.
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