You Inspire Me. You Make Me Brave.

{By Sara Sophia}

if we look closely
the sunspots in our eyes
become lions and bears made of fire.

they glimmer and bare their teeth

i counted the freckles on her cheeks.
There are 27.
tomorrow they will multiply.

tracks left
by lions
by bears
constellations mapped out across her
perfect
little
face.

and the day is all fierceness and flame.

bright like four lives in a jar
set free.

and they laugh louder under God’s gaze
and shoot up to pluck stars from the heavens

Mercy is this firepit

burning away the chaff
of every broken day before.

(written for my children after reading my favorite poet-mama)

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Nearly four years ago I sat in front of a computer screen with the idea of starting a blog.

My world had grown so small I could hardly breathe.

I was alone in the rural south with nobody and no one
but the four little people who clung tight and close to my soul.
I had no idea how much searching Google
and clicking the link for “blogger” would change my life.

The relationships and connections—
the support I’ve received, in the truest sense of the word,
have made me a better person.
Oh how I mean that.

Fast forward to now and I find myself hemmed in and lifted up
by the strong women I’ve had the privilege of getting to know in this online space.
Women who have changed the way I think about my life
and who give me the courage to break free from the scarred places
where the hurt just won’t let go.

Women who have opened the door to their lives
and given a glimpse of their day to day;
who have inspired me consistently since 2009.
So much of how I share life with my children is influenced by the beautiful hearts
that share their homes, thoughts, and eloquence within this community.

Its as though we all somehow fell in a mixing pot and became family.
A tipi village.

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(You serve me on the wild grasses of a prairie
–tea; out of your best cup nonetheless–
and I’m watching with full eyes how you teach your second grader.
I’m taking in the meals you make and the way your eyes shepherd over the ones you love.
I see your love in how you write them.
I hear the click of the keys and the heart poured out with every line I read.)

Who would ever think something technical could be so beautiful?

Blogs are my research for parenting and so many other things—
I find that I trust the authors behind them so much more
than any I’d find on bookstore shelves.

Its that family-connection.
It spans miles and distance and difference.
So on days when I can’t find my center,
I go here.
And here.
And here.
And here.
And here.
And here.
And here. And here.

Like a path to salvation.

 For the days I can’t figure it out, can’t find it, can’t do it,
can’t take it, can’t make it, build it, teach it or write it….

You are there lighting a candle in the dark and blazing the trail ahead of me.

When anyone asks for advice I can’t give, I always point them online.
To the women I trust, respect and admire.
Technology has changed a lot of things—and not all for the better—
but I will forever be grateful that we have this space for community.

I owe so much to all of you.
<3

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(Let me know if you feel as warm, fuzzy and downright poetic
about parenting together via the internet as I do;
link up your stories here and don’t forget to visit mom.me!)

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5 Comments to “You Inspire Me. You Make Me Brave.”

  1. You Inspire Me. You Make Me Brave. On the parenting community with @momdotme by @sarasophia http://t.co/yFUM3bKT

  2. You Inspire Me. You Make Me Brave. On the parenting community with @momdotme by @sarasophia http://t.co/Q3klP0i1

  3. FennyPenny
    Twitter:
    says:

    “and they laugh louder under God’s gaze
    and shoot up to pluck stars from the heavens”

    This is so very beauitful… I love the way you write about your children, you are a truly talented poet.
    FennyPenny recently posted..I believe in You

  4. Lois says:

    It’s a great thing to have confidence, because it establishes a lot of good qualities in your life. You are also then able to benefit from quite a bit of things.
    Lois recently posted..go here

  5. Joyce says:

    I find that I trust the authors behind them so much more
    than any I’d find on bookstore shelves.
    Joyce recently posted..halitosis

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